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My Journey

I suppose most people can look back at their life and recognise a defining moment when their life’s journey took a 180 and everything changed. For me it was a Breast Cancer diagnosis. Up to that point I felt lucky and grateful for my lot in life. I had four beautiful children and a wonderful husband and a nursing career. A life time caring for those around me, including my patients suited me and I felt this was my calling. Don’t get me wrong I worked hard to achieve this, studying at Post Graduate level, working long hours both in and out of the home. Suddenly I needed to be looked after. Anyone who has to deal with a life threatening disease knows the journey is a hard one. There were many “aha” moments but I soon realised that I had neglected the one person I shouldn’t have and that was, myself! I was looking after everyone but me. I wasn’t feeding my soul and although my nursing was paying the bills it was depleting me and my bucket was empty. I was proud of this revelation as it caused me to dig deep to, not only beat the cancer, but find out what was my purpose for the rest of my life. And, I was determined that it would be a long one. The day came when I was cancer free and our whole family celebrated in style. Where to next I thought? Shortly after this my adult children were reminiscing about their childhood and the discussion came around to their Guardian Angel Stories. I sat back and marvelled at how, one, they could remember the stories and, two, how fondly they spoke of this special time.
“Mum you should write those stories you told us,” said Joanne my daughter. This was followed by a chorus of “yes, mum you should.” Secretly they probably thought I needed a distraction in the recovery stage of my treatment, as even though I had returned to work, I was restless. This was the time when my dream to write and publish my stories was born. I had always written academically but never creatively. It became a joy to sit at the computer and write, prior to this it wasn’t my favourite place to be. Self publishing has been a challenge and I have learnt many new skills, and although at times I found myself frustrated I never lost sight of my dream. I was thrilled the day I held the book in my hands and saw the cover which I had painted. This was feeding my soul unlike anything had before. A favourite quote that sustained me through this process was, “How does one become a butterfly? You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar? (Trina Paulus) I was brave enough to give up being a caterpillar. And I not only flew, I soared!
Breast Cancer was just one part on my life’s journey, and it may have been a defining moment but it didn’t define me. It led me to a journey of discovering who I really was and what my soul purpose was. I am passionate about my dream to publish my Guardian Angel Stories series and I want to share them with as many children as I can. It will be a beautiful legacy for my family and future generations, and a reminder for my family to follow their dreams no matter what.

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  • Karen
    April 22, 2017 - 12:11 am · Reply

    Such a beautiful story Meredith, your story, it has filled my heart and watered my eyes. So excited to see you today and purchase my signed copy. Much love xx

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